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Post by Master Shake on Jun 2, 2008 22:59:34 GMT -5
My life has just taken a sudden shock to the system......it's tragedy is truly beyond belief.
I received a phone call this morning from my doctor..... he found a tumor. He said "it looks like colon cancer"
I had no idea how this could have happened. From what I know, Colon cancer is extremely unlikely for people below their 60's. I am only 22 years old, going to be 23 on the 16th. Not to mention..... I have lived a very healthy and active life....with a healthy diet and whatnot. I read up on Wikipedia the causes of this, and the only thing I could come up with was that it is hereditary. I found out that my great grandfather, who died much before I was born, suffered colon cancer which ultimately led to his death.....
My life has taken a 180 degree turn, and right now, as I sit here at night with my laptop computer.... I have no clue in the world what I am going to do. Obviously, I am praying that when I go back into see the doctor Thursday that he can tell me that what he spotted was NOT a tumor.
My time on the computer and time posting on forums (Which basically is only about three forums now) as well as my time doing sports writing, blogging, and whatnot will have to come to a sudden halt. At this point, I need to see if I will need chemotherapy, and if I will be able to spend time at home.... if I can spend time at home more often, or if by some chance I do not have cancer, my posting should be on par with what I am usually at. If not..... don't expect me back anytime soon. I will try to keep you all posted, but don't count on that. I think forums and sports will be the last thing on my mind for a long, and godforbid the rest of my time.
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Post by FootballFreak03 on Jun 3, 2008 10:35:20 GMT -5
Im sorry to hear that. Get well soon. Stay away as long as you need.
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Post by dacrew on Jun 3, 2008 16:12:19 GMT -5
I feel terrible about this. Get well soon.
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Post by GEO's Backup Account on Jun 4, 2008 15:38:12 GMT -5
I just saw this and I'm really, truly shocked. Please, take all the time you need. Just try to think positive thoughts.
Take care.
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Post by iPatriot on Jun 4, 2008 15:56:10 GMT -5
Best of luck moving forward, man.
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Post by BlackOps on Jun 4, 2008 19:03:55 GMT -5
That's really terrible. Good luck getting through it, that's what you need to do.
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Post by mainstreet52 on Jun 4, 2008 21:34:12 GMT -5
I don't really have anything to say that hasn't been said, but consider myself among there somewhere.
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Post by malkin on Jun 4, 2008 23:03:31 GMT -5
best of luck to you. i hope everything goes well for you.
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Post by MxHT413 on Jun 4, 2008 23:05:20 GMT -5
Stay strong MS. Hope you get better.
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Post by philliesphan on Jun 5, 2008 19:22:46 GMT -5
This is horrible, do whatever you can to get better. I'm in shock reading this. Get Well Soon.
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Post by Master Shake on Jun 5, 2008 22:37:53 GMT -5
Today was the moment of truth for me. Unfortunately, it was also the day when my life took a turn for the worse.
The doctor confirmed that it was a cancerous tumor. I'll spare the details. But what I can tell you is that he told me that this will take several months of chemotherapy. He told me that I would have to fight very hard and be very strong through this entire process. He said, "Colon Cancer is extremely difficult to fight, and normally people don't have the strength to make it."
I hate to say this, but I'm scared. I have no idea what is in store for me...... these last couple of days have been an absolute nightmare. If someone had told me last week that this was going to happen, I would have thought it was completely absurd.
I never planned on doing this, but with all the information I have been releasing on this, I figure... why not let the people on the internet message boards who I really am. There are only a couple of forum members that I have ever known personally, but I can call other members I communicate with friends I guess. My real name is Tanner. I am obviously from Buffalo New York, and I am 22 years old.
My job, well, I work out of the home. A friend and I are part of an online buying and selling business... and we have been able to make livings off of it. I am also a sports journalist in training. I still would've had a long way to go before I started blogging on the local newspaper, but it's always been a dream of mine. I am also a statistician for the local high school football teams..... But thats mostly for thrills, I guess. I also plan doing radio work when I get older.
I tried coaching once, in a pee-wee football league and connie mack baseball. I was kicked out of both leagues because of my "perfectionist" attitude towards the games, instead of just letting the kids have fun. Oh well, I'd say their loss.
I do forums because it is an easy way to communicate with others and make friends from all around the world. It is a way for cultures to blend by simply posting messages on threads. I became a part of message boards in 2003.
I have made some good friends along the way. A lot of good experiences on forums, and some bad ones. I think it is almost a way of.....well... using a time capsule. You look at old posts from years back...... and you say, "Wow, I posted that??" This brings back memories from not only those forums but what was going on in your life at the time.... and I always thought it was all just so great.
You know what, at this point.... Im just rambling. I'll stop for now. All this is going to do is make me even more depressed...... but I will never be ungrateful for my life again if I pull through this. I guess you never really fully appreciate something or someone until it is gone or has been jeopardized.
This probably isn't my last message. But I can't make any guarantees. I really hope I can keep everyone posted on my status........and maybe return some day to become a normal poster once again.
I'd like to thank all of you for your comments on this. It truly does mean a lot to me. And I know I have made a lot of controversial posts and topics on this forum that have been looked at as bad or just downright foolish... but I guess thats just me. Sometimes I just have mood flareups like that. But I don't care about that. You're all friends. Seeing that you guys have posted what you have..... well, It really gves me a sense of relief....knowing that there are still people like you left in this world. And for that, I am very grateful.
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Post by philliesphan on Jun 8, 2008 18:29:10 GMT -5
Certainly keep us posted, I've been checking this thread often hoping for some good news. Unfortunately I didn't get it, but I really hope you get through this man.
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Post by OOYL on Jun 9, 2008 15:38:07 GMT -5
Man......I really feel for you. Best regards for a speedy recovery, and never give up hope.
If theres anything I or any of the TS community can do for you, don't be scared to ask.
Again, get well soon.
ooyl
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Post by jdbsa05 on Jun 12, 2008 12:41:18 GMT -5
Get well soon.
I think that is the sentiments of the entire TS community.
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Post by Master Shake on Jun 29, 2008 20:47:33 GMT -5
I'd like to thank all of you for your support. Yes, this last month has been pretty brutal and demoralizing to me as a man. But I refuse to be stricken by the fear that this brings to the table. I am posting this to let you all know that despite the gravity off all of this, I am confident to stay strong throughout this entire process, and to keep you all posted. My hopes are that I can get through this, which again, I can assure I am capable of. I am the same person, but with a much different train of thought then before. I realize how precious life is, and that all of its good moments should be cherished. I have always been one to be very fortunate, but it's not up until now I have realized how worse things could have been for me prior to this. Again, I am very thankful that there are people in this world like the community of TS, ones that may be on other parts of the country/world yet stick to their peers through the toughest of times.
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